I was naive to think that I would not go through a moment like that, and terrified when I did.
- This morning started out like usual, I enjoyed my routine with my baby like I always do.
We were up since 6, and he had 2 bottles by 12. We played and danced around and watched some television (he loves watching tv). .
When I rocked him to sleep in my arms, I put him in his crib, so I could make some bottles for the day.
Lately he has enjoyed sleeping on stomach, so I put him on his stomach.
I went inside into the kitchen to fix some bottles (my first mistake)
When I went inside, I noticed the front door was open, and noone was home. This scared me, so I spent about a minute walking around to make sure there wasnt a person hiding trying to kill me..
When the coast was clear , and I found out that my mother-in-law-to-be accidently left it unlocked and the wind blew it open I continued to make some bottles..
I was in the house for all of about 5 minutes or so.
When I went back into the room to check on my son, I found myself in a panic and then experienced the scariest moment of my life..
- My 2 month old son had wiggled his way to the other end of the crib and was face down , panting and gasping for air.
I immediatley picked him and held him upright- He was breathing very short deep breathes, and was trying to cry. I immediatley started balling my eyes out and walking around with him.. to try and calm him down.
- He started making noise after a few seconds of being up..
It only took about a minute or so to calm him down but it felt like an hour- I cryed for an extra 2 hours considering all the possibilities of what could have happened. What if is stayed in the house longer?
I have had a moment to calm myself down.
and I have thought through the mistakes I made and learned a lesson
NEVER EVER leave your baby unattended - especially if he or she is on their stomach...
and never underestimate your childs abilities..
Today was the scariest day of my life- I thought I that I almost killed or severly damaged my son -
He is fine and okay and I experienced my first mommy mistake.
and while it may traumatize me more than him for a while , I have learned what not do in the future...